I have thought about it long and hard, but I think that I am ready to go through with it. I want to have liposuction done, in order to get rid of some of my fat. I wish that it did not come to this, but nothing else has worked for me. So I am reading about Cape Town liposuction centers and I would like to find the one that is regarded the most highly. I would not want to go anywhere else, because I do not really like the idea of having surgery, regardless of how minor it is, and so this is a disconcerting thing for me to have to go through regardless.
But I do not want to be fat anymore. I am tired of looking into the mirror and longing to be skinny. I am just fed up and I have to do something to change my appearance, because I am becoming rather depressed, and I do not want to be ruled by negative emotions and my self image. It seems like the only way to convince myself that I look alright, is to actually look alright in my own eyes, and therefore I need to have this surgery done.
It will also help me in some other ways. I have some bad joints and weighing a lot puts more stress on them. I am missing some cartilage in my knee, and so losing some weight should help with that. I know that my husband will probably find me more attractive if I am able to lose weight as well, and that is also important to me. But I think the most important thing for me, is just to be able to feel comfortable in my own skin once again. It has been a long time.